Wrapped like a mummy

so today i had another PT session. and if there are mistakes on this blog it is because my PT,  Rommelle, has wrapped my right arm like a mummy.  she did a series of lymph massages... some felt good (around the neck), the others felt weird.. on my tummy and right arm.. and the right armpit was painful.  she massaged me for about 40 minutes, then she showed Frendell how to wrap my hand first, followed by my arm.  It feels like my whole arm is casted, complete with a stockinette over it, from the middle finger joints all the way to the armpit.  It is very uncomfortable.. and she told me I can take it off if it really bothers me, but she'd like me to keep it on until tomorrow when I shower in the morning, if I can do it. Try going to the bathroom or taking off your pants or unbuttoning your shirt... even rolling to my side to try and get up and out of bed is a challenge... And eating is quite a blast.. first, a hold the spoon on my right and try to scoop the food on it, then I change it to my left hand, but i'm not used to it, so I switch and try to eat with my right, but my elbow can't bend too far, so I have to put it on my left hand again.  It's like playing musical spoons.   And to try and look at the bright side.. it could have been worse.. i could have needed both arms done.. then what would I do then?  

Last night I attended a seminar @ the Wellness House called 'A Hero Within'. It gave cancer survivors and their families an opportunity to journal and explore feelings through this whole journey. They liken it to a hero's journey, where there is a Call to Adventure, the Refusal, then the Shield, being Lost, Mentors, Sabboteurs.. it was a neat way to reflect on how it's been and others shared what they've gone through.  Five of the women from my Thursday group were there, so it really felt like a mini-group session... one even had her husband there. It was neat for me to be able to write down and give voice to some feelings and some anxieties that have loomed and that I've been ignoring. Tonight, we will finish with Crossing the Threshold and looking to what's ahead.  I'm not sure how I will be able to write.. even sitting up will be hard.

I have tried to walk some each day to try and train for the walk on Mothers Day.. and the result is that my back hurts more.. so no matter which way I turn, i hurt front and back.. :-(  but it could be worse, I may have had to have IV chemo on top of it.... or had to have a double mastectomy... so I am not complaining too loudly.. just moaning a little.  I hope the wrapping decreases the swelling soon.. other than that, things have been well. Mom and Dad are here and have helped us so much already with house stuff and cheering me up and Mom walks with me when the weather let's us walk outside... I am blessed...