Treatment

Another treatment day... every time I go for my injections, I think that it won't be too bad this time around and I'm wrong every time. It hurts :-( and the funny taste in my mouth comes after about 15 - 30 mins. Sometimes I feel nauseated and I'm usually tired. My nurse, Jeanine, is always so nice and encouraging. I told her I'd started seeing the psychologist and she thought it was a good idea. We talked about my sleeping and how the medicine is working and I told her it helps me sleep for 8 hours when I take it. So, she asked the doctor to write me up another prescription so that I can refill it soon.

Got home and rested for a little bit until I had to go to PT. Linda worked on scar massage at the medial part of my chest and also did alot of range of motion. Sometimes it was uncomfortable coz my right arm is so tight. Pavel followed massaging my arm and my right side. It was a really weird sensation getting massaged on the back of my arm coz I can't feel very much there, but every so often I would get shooting pain or sharp pain in that area. It's so hard to describe it.... it's like my arm's asleep all the time. I guess it is for the most part.

Lsat Monday, I had my 2nd appt with the psychologist. I always feel like a dripping faucet when I see her coz I can't stop crying. She asks me how I am and I bawl like a baby. She asked me if I thought talking to her helped me and I'm crying like there's no tomorrow. She asked me how my sleep and pain levels were and there's just no stopping the tears. I think I used up half of her tissue box (it was brand new when I walked in)... and I'm sure I would've finished it if my time wasn't up so quickly. She's probably relieved when I'm done with my session, just so she can get a break from all the tears. Maybe I should bring an umbrella for her for my next session. She has asked me to try and write down at least 2-4 things that I can plan to do each day and try to do at least half of them. I told her that that morning, I had baked some muffins. Granted, it was semi-homemade, but I hadn't even baked in 18 months and I have missed it tremendously. I was glad I did it, even though it didn't turn out to be the best muffins I've made... Frendell ate some and said he liked it. So, now, I will try and write down what I need to do each day, whether it be to go out and water my plants, whatever's left of them that haven't withered yet, bake or cook something, pack something in the balikbayan box (to be sent to the Philippines), sort through the files in my office, or spend the day at the Shedd aquarium.... I will try to do at least one thing each day.

I do have to include there walking... as I hope to be able to do the 5k in October for the Wellness House in Hinsdale. I do hope you are training as well so you can join me for this walk...