Dr's appointment

Today was treatment day. Sometimes when I go to Clinic E there's no one there but me and a couple of stragglers... today, there was a steady flow of people coming and going. They must've moved the kid's clinic coz there haven't been as many kids during this time as it has been in the past. I wonder where they moved the kids to or what day they have clinic now. Even though the place looks festive with all the garlands and Cardinal Bernadine's tree enclosed in glass by Clinic A, it made me realize the cancer does not take a holiday. We were there to be checked by the doctor so we can get our treatments.. shots or IVs. Some were making plans for their Christmas celebrations but others were talking about radiation and chemotherapy and medications. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to have a day or two where no one gets sick and there are no treatments and no medications and no clinic Es...


After that, I had to hurry to get to my eye doctor's appointment. Contacts are doing well and looking well. It has been hard trying to figure out which lenses would work for me. This fluroperm seems to do the trick so far. Dr. Russo suggested that I order n extra pair to take on the mission trip. I didn't know how my eyes would adjust to the contacts so I ordered an extra pair of glasses instead. The lenses do feel better compared to the other ones but it still moves out of position when I blink. At least it doesn't go to the very corners anymore like the other ones and if it does, I have a rubber suction to take it out. A pretty nifty device. He said the eyelashes at the bottom lid were really poking my corneas and he's afraid that it would infect my eye. So, even though I did not want to and he put like 4 drops of anesthesia in both eyes, he plucked my bottom eyelashes. I really wanted to screen!!! and I wanted him to stop. But, he is concerned about scratches in my cornea. Such a horrible thing to go through. Not as bad as being awake during eye surgery but bad enough. I told him I will ask Dr. Yoo to surgically remove the inner layer of my bottom eyelashes, that way I don't have to go through this again. i was so afraid he would poke my eye with the tweezers but he was very gentle and reassuring the whole time. Me? I whimpered and cried because it hurt so bad even with the numbing agent in my eye. He also did it with my contacts on... and this time, he removed about 12 on the left and about a couple on the right.  I'm glad that's over with. Tonight, when Mahal put the ointment in my left eye, he said that it looks cleaner and it was easier to put the ointment because there was no barrier to keep it out. 


I saw my patient today. I walked in their house and they had their tree all set up with very nice decorations. The baby & I sat on the floor under the tree. It was nice coz they had the lights on. I told the Mom & GM that I like sitting there working with the tree lighted up. I haven't had the energy the last 3 years to put up a tree or decorate for the holidays so it was nice to just be able to sit there and enjoy the tranquility it brings. 


after that, I came home and rested... and did some work at the end of the day... i'm very sleepy now and if I have alot of typos, please excuse me. I'm very sleepy and I can't see a thing because of the ointment in my eye. till next time :-)  UPDATE: respiratory bacterial infection is almost completely done and my voice is back. I've taken antibiotics for 5 days now.. pretty potent stuff. The gastroenteritis is still there in terms of stomach cramping and nausea. Today after treatment, the nausea was pretty yukky. Thankfully I found some ginger candy that a friend recommended from Trader Joes. At least it gave a distraction because the candy is very spicy.


I'm very sleepy & I'm falling asleep trying to type.. so if there are alot of mistakes, please excuse me.  take care :-)