It was very hard to lay down in prone (on your stomach) for 45 minutes for the whole thing. They set up the IV and I was asked to get down on the table. Then I was slid back into the tunnel and then I heard the door click. Of course, the tech, Phil, told me to not take deep breaths because it could cause some movement that will blur the pictures. Okay, so if you tell me NOT to take a deep breath, I'm going to want to take a huge one. As soon as that door closed, the knocking began. They gave me ear plugs but it was still very loud in there. I told myself NOT to take a deep breath... 'Shallow breaths, Glady, shallow breaths'. I tried to visualize myself at the beach relaxing and reading a book. I imagined my entire body turning into jello and just relaxing. Then I recited Psalm 23 and even sang it in my head. Most of the time, I imagined the kids faces and their smiles... all the kids in our family... playing, smiling and sometimes asking me to fight... that helped me focus. I kept telling myself that it was only 45 mins of my life. And pretty soon, I felt the dye going through the IV and I knew it was towards the end. Some 10 minutes later and before I squeezed the bulb to tell them I needed to sit up, I heard Phil's voice telling me, "you did well, Glady... we're all done". Yeay!!! I was very dizzy and stiff when I got up, but I made it. Whew!!
In leaving the place, I realized just how many women are getting diagnosed with this disease. Two were leaving as I was coming in and then 2 more were arriving when I left and there was another one waiting in the waiting room. I was aware that I am so blessed that I have been feeling much better lately... and my trips to the cancer center and the outpatient centers are diminishing... God has been so good and faithful to me... He has given me so much hope
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